Reconnecting With My Inner Wolf

September 6, 2022

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Recently, I have lost touch with myself, became someone that I didn't recognize, didn't like, and was not proud of. I was living in a place of fear and living for everyone else and not at all for me.

For years, I have had felt a connection with wolves. This can be traced back to childhood, when I first saw a wolf in a national park during a family trip. Later in life, I had friends that had wolves, to which I always felt a connection. I was one of the only people that they let close to them. I also had an amazing encounter with a few wolves when camping while in Alaska. I always felt close to them and connected in a way that I couldn’t explain.

Years later, I met my partner and she explained to me that the wolf is my spirit animal and that this is how she has always seen me… as her Lobo Feroz (Big Bad Wolf).

Her belief in me and encouragement felt incredible, for someone to actually see me this way gave me the such confidence. Confidence that I should already be carrying within.

The alpha wolf is a perfect male role model. He is self-assured and self-confident and leads by example. He knows what is best for his pack and knows what to do. He is wise and bold, but also compassionate and caring. The pack is calmed by his leadership ability. The alpha wolf is not aggressive, what he needed to prove has already been proven.

We could all learn a few things from the real wolves: less snarling, more quiet confidence, move with intention, leading by example, faithful devotion in the care and defense of families, respect for females and a sharing of responsibilities. That’s really what it means to let your inner wolf out.

I once walked proudly, head held high, feeling quietly confident and secure. After years of being held back, beat down (by myself), and feeling powerless, I had lost that.

The big, beautiful, strong and proud wolf that lives inside of me and guides me was stuffed deep down inside of me. My partner saw this clearly, even though I could not. She opened my eyes to what still lives inside of me and helped me believe that I could be that person again.

Every day I a am becoming more in touch with my inner-self and my inner wolf is re-emerging, I am moving with more intention, self-assured, self-confident, becoming wiser, driven by a desire to be strong and complete, and becoming the man that I was always meant to be.