Sound healing & Sound Bath

September 6, 2022

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A couple of weeks ago, I attended a sound healing and sound bath session to try and raise my vibration and help align myself. Upon arrival, I found that I was not alone in the belief that this therapy can be of amazing benefit. I took my place on my mat and began relaxing and my breathing exercises. By the time that the meditation portion began, I was relaxed and ready to receive.

I set my intention, which is an area that I have previously struggled. Before, I wanted everything fixed right then and there. So, my intention was messy... Something like, I want to be more present and forget the past and handle my triggers better and be more mindful and feel safe and trust and and and.... Obviously this did not work and was too much to focus on. This journey is not a sprint, but a marathon.

So, this evening my intention was quite different. My only intention was to Let Go. This applied in so many aspects of my life. Letting go of the bad feeling from triggers or letting go of the triggers themselves, letting go of expectations, letting go of the need to control, letting go of the anxiety that I give myself, and much more.

After meditation, we all laid back on out mats and the sound healing began. It was an incredible experience, seeing waves of light moving across my closed eyes, feeling the vibration, connecting with myself. Everything was going well until my mind started to wander. I began to fear being alone, not having my partner in my life, my family, and my friends. This set off a mild panic attack. I could feel my heart rate increase, my blood pressure rise and I felt antsy. I worked through it and practice letting go of that which I cannot control. Unfortunately, one thought stayed in my head... The time that my partner and I were spending apart to work on ourselves began to feel as if it was permanent and that I would never be able to show her the new version of myself. That it was already determined that this is not a good relationship to try to revisit and that the last time I saw her, would be the last time I saw her, ever.

My original intention of letting go was derailed, as was my idea of meeting wonderful people after the session, building relationships and expanding my circle of friends. I was not in the right mindset or putting off the right energy to connect with anyone.

I went to the car, laid my head back and worked on my breathing. This helped my recenter myself, at which point I drove back to the house.

Not being one to give up so easily, I will keep trying this form of therapy as I know that it has amazing abilities to help, but I was just not ready for this session. It is my belief that the need to be aligned mentally and spiritually must be met before looking to heal in this way.

The next session is next week, we will see how I am feeling at that point and see if it is the right time to pursue this.